God Gave Me You

As I sit here and write this, I can honestly say, I'm not okay, and I haven't been for a long time. But on my way home from work today, the Lord sent me a little nudge. I honestly believe this song was played just for me. I've been struggling a lot emotionally lately...a LOT. I find myself feeling angry, upset, or crying for no reason. When I heard this song, I got teary-eyed and realized I'm not in this alone. God gave me Ryan. The lyrics are literally exactly how I would describe what I'm going through :

"I've been a walking heart-ache. I've made a mess of me. The person that I've been lately, ain't who I wanna be. But you stay here right beside me and watch as the storm blows through. I need you. God gave me you for the ups and down. God gave me you for the days of doubt. And for when I think I've lost my way, there are no words here left to say. God gave me you."

When I think back onto everything I've gone through, the miracle is blatant. Ryan watches me have melt downs, takes my outbursts with patience, and he rubs my back when I sit and cry. He's the best thing that's ever happened to me. I don't know what I would do without him, and I'd be a complete idiot to not tell him how much I love him and his support. He's gotten me through some of my hardest days. Literally. Listen to this song. It's my song and I dedicate it to Ryan.

(You're gonna have to watch it on YouTube, but here's the link....)

(Day 285)