Can It Get Any Worse?

Quite honestly, I'm sick of Mondays. It seems like every Monday just sends me on a spiral deeper into my depression. And I don't know how much longer I can last. What happened today to make it so terrible? Have you ever written a heart-felt letter to a loved one, only to have them come back within 30 seconds, telling you to shut up because they don't care? Yeah, that happened to me today. My world just feels so mixed up. I feel hated and used. I wish I could just curl up in bed and go to sleep forever. I wake up every single morning and force myself to go into work. I think to myself "you hate work, but you're blessed to have a job". But then days like today happen, where I'm hurt to the point of getting sick from crying so much, and being forced to leave work. Where do I turn when it feels like everyone hates me? Ryan feels like the only solid ground I have.

The only good thing that happened today was that I got my rings back! Or should I say ring? They were beautifully cleaned and sautered into one. I'm not lying when I say that every time I take in my ring, the person says "I've never seen a ring quite like this." It's such a unique, gorgeous ring, and it gets people talking every time. I love it. I'm happy that it's back on my finger, and I no longer have to walk around feeling like Ryan's pregnant mistress. :P

I've heard it referred to as a "cluster" diamond. It's one large diamond in the middle, surrounded by 4 corner diamonds. Others call it a butterfly or a flower cut. We picked the braided diamond band because it was different, yet so pretty. I keep hinting to Ryan that I want another band for the other side. Hopefully when we hit our 10 year anniversary, I'll get my other band.
*hint hint*

(Day 290)