August 11, 2011

Sometimes I Wonder...

Today has been one of those days where I realize how blonde I really am. Several times today I have done something that made me just hang my head and laugh at myself. I can't help it, I'm blonde! I say this all the time, but when I married Ryan, I swear all IQ points died. All of the sudden I became the biggest ditz, and I don't even know why! I'll be very serious and say that I think it's because my entire life I've been judged by my appearance...in a bad way. The fact that I'm fat has always been the first thing people see. So I learned to lean on my intelligence as something to draw people in. When I snagged Ryan, I knew that he loved me for me, and that keeping up appearances, so to speak, wasn't as necessary. Poor guy! He thought I was smart, but ever since, the phrase "I can't take you anywhere," accompanied with the shake of his head, has become somewhat of a daily thing.

Today's picture says it all. Have you ever been eating a bag of chips, and enjoyed it so much that you wanted the crumbs at the bottom? I was eating Cheez-it crackers from a plastic lunch bag, and just assumed that the typical shaking of the bag into my mouth would suffice. Nope. It didn't. Apparently the grooved edge of the bag created a difficult barrier for the crumbs to smoothly pass over, causing me to shake it a little harder than necessary. Instead of going into my mouth, my entire body (face down to my legs) was completely covered in the crumbs. I sat there thinking to myself "oh my. That was dumb. I hope no one saw that." Ha! Sometimes I wonder where my brain went when I started dating Ryan. I'm hoping that my constant state of dumb blonde is something that he actually finds enjoyable. I will admit that life is always funny because of the things I do.





(Day 114)

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